spring fever ...

& once again i must apologize for my lack of blogging ... i can't lie there's been a lack of inspiration going on in my life when it comes to photography. I'm 9 months pregnant ... the lil dude is due on Saturday (with no signs of showing up) & i have some serious impatience kicking in. I have been trying to do a million & one things to stay busy, to keep my mind of it & well i haven't really been shooting for me. & it sucks, i hate it. 

I hate that i don't see things that take my breath away, that speak to me. Spring is finally kicking in around here & yes i know sometimes you need to go search for it but my desire to search has been limited by ever increasing belly, "cankles" & various other "issues' that arise from the watermelon that is my belly. I see green but the trees round me have yet to flourish & the thought of climbing my favourite hill for nothing to be there leaves me tired just thinking about it. 

But today that all changed ... i am no longer bartending (i must admit that isn't mu choice) & this morning i was teaching, the student's choice was the "Japanese gardens" in Kaiserslautern. Well i can't lie i found my inspiration. I got out, the sun shone, i was able to wear flip flops, i slept well & most of all the colours were calling my name. Flowers were blooming, pinks & greens & blue blue skies. I loved it. I felt wonderful & not only was i getting inspired but i was doing one of my favourite things ... sharing my love for photography. I mean honestly can a morning get any more perfect? I felt like me again, like the something that was missing these past few weeks as i packed my life with everything & anything just so i wouldn't think about the impending arrival of my was back & i could smile & enjoy things. Not that i wasn't because i love being busy but sometimes you need some time to "smell the roses" so to speak & be you & wander aimlessly with camera in hand. 

& so i got to do just that & here are the results of my morning's "work" (i call it that but we all know it really wasn't). Sometimes we need to be forced to do something we don't necessarily want to so we realize what was missing. I'm going to miss my friends at work, i have some amazing customers & i love my life but now it's time to focus on me & my family. & honestly i think i may just be ready to do that! 

It's spring fever.  That is what the name of it is.  And when you've got it, you want - oh, you don't quite know what it is you do want, but it just fairly makes your heart ache, you want it so!  

         ~ Mark Twain